Getting Better

Well, I am 75% better. I am still having minor gastro problems, but I have added some foods back to my diet and have much more energy. Preliminary tests show nothing yet. I still have a few more to go. I am starting to believe this was just a really weird virus.
We are at my Mom's right now, because I had a job interview (fingers crossed). It is nice to be home for a good reason. Robbie is having a ball her, he loves is grandma, he wakes up every morning asking for her. And he had a ball with my best friends son too. We will be moving back here in a few months, it is good to know he likes it so much.

Still Sick: Getting Testing

I have now been sick since December 18th, at first they thought, it was an allergy, (testing ruled that out), a virus, depression, none of these are the case.Now they think it is my esophagus. The problem is shortly after I eat most foods my throat feels full and like it is closing, I feel like I can't swallow and need to burp. That is the worst part of it. Now, I wake in the morning nauseous and super tired. Have some boost. Then by lunch I am usually hungry and have a small meal. Then I nap with Robbie. Then I have a small supper and usually my throat fills up again and I am exhausted. On a good night I can give Robbie a bath and play with him, on a bad night, no bath and I watch him play. Since this started Robbie has wanted to nurse non-stop and that is taking some energy. So, I am trying to cut him back to morning, nap and night. I have lost 12 pounds. I had a barium x-ray on Monday and on Wednesday, I have a gastroscopy. So, hopefully next week, I will have some answers. I am really sick of being sick and would like to enjoy my son more.

I'm still here

I am still around. I had a rough holiday. Besides being sick (I am still a little sick) all of it, my favorite Aunt and one of my favorite people in the whole world passed away on the 26th. We all had to fly home for the services and stuff and I am not dealing with this all very well. I even thought of starting an antidepressant, I took one effexor and that was it, never again. I took in the early morning and was still wide awake at 5:00 am and Robbie (it is suppossed to be safe for nursing babies) was up and down all that night and couldn't stay asleep. So, I am going to just take the healing process slowly on my own. I am reading blogs and groups (and that actually helps), just not responding much. So, I am keeping a low profile for now.